MY KATAWA SHOUJO MANIFESTO

A call for visual novel creators—present or future.


Art is not a handicraft. It is the transmission of feeling the artist has experienced.
—Leo Tolstoy

The above quote was sent to me by mail as I was considering switching vocations. I ordered some deckled paper on Etsy, and the seller included the quote printed out on an extra sheet. At the time, I was making YouTube videos. Although I wouldn't have known how to describe it so precisely back then, that quote encapsulated perfectly what I was trying to do with my work: Retransmit powerful feelings that had moved me to improve my life. I managed to get over 10 million views on my channel and received many comments indicating that, to some degree, I was succeeding at inspiring others:

Receiving these comments and hundreds of others just like them was very fulfilling and spurred me on to create more videos. I also published a non-fiction book which I promoted on my YouTube channel that ended up being quite successful.

I was entertaining and motivating people to make their lives better, and it felt great. But gradually, my own motivation began to wane. There are several reasons for this, but one factor has gained ascendancy in my memory, and it is also now dictating my future and how I will approach creative work for the rest of my life.

What I realized is this: The feeling I was working to transmit is easily found in many other places. YouTube is extremely saturated with lots of great motivational content. Although I felt I was doing things in a unique way and inspiring some people who might not have otherwise been reached, the overall difference I was making was relatively small. For most of my life, I've been driven to have a positive impact on others by creating things. When I fully realized that what I was creating was largely replaceable by work being done by so many others, my motivation quickly evaporated. I felt that it was no longer enough to create something that enriched people's lives. I wanted it to be something that they would very likely not get anywhere else.

And that's when I received the quote from the Etsy seller: